Asked "What do you want to be?" and "What do you want to do?"
If this isn't opening up a can of worms, I don't know what is... (chuckling to myself)
I wonder this myself, often.
I knew for a long, long, time that I wanted to be rich and wealthy but I didn't know what I was going to do in order to get me there. So I have just continued to work and go to school and try to find that one thing I thought I could tolerate to do for the rest of my life that would gain my acceptance to wealth and the option to have the "good life", the life that could buy you anything at anytime, well almost at least. Or maybe just the kind of life that could provide this for my future kids and ease my stress of them having to struggle as I did and do. I know for a long time I wanted reassurance that whatever decided I wanted to do, that I wanted it to make me guaranteed money AND guarantee that it lasted long enough through my retirement. I wanted something stable so I wouldn't have to worry about where I would be in 5, 10 or 15 years. Stable enough to not live paycheck to paycheck, stable enough to buy a house so from that point on I would never have to worry about where I would live.
But if you haven't noticed all I've said up to this point are all the things I wanted from what I would do.
The last two years of my life I have grown a lot, learned a lot and accepted a lot. I almost pursued a nursing degree solely based on the fact that 1. there is an (almost) guaranteed job upon graduation 2. great money and 3. the fact that I have worked in healthcare for the last 7 years (not by choice). In 2011 I decided to obtain an Aesthetician License with the goal in mind to work for either a dermatologist or plastic surgeon with the potential to use my esthetics license to increase my value and knowledge in the industry and get out of the area of medical I was in because I wanted a change of pace. Well here I was again just looking for something that would make me more money not necessarily make me more happy, although I did think it would be more fun and fulfilling. In 2013 I met with a counselor at Chabot College, told them I was interested in two areas, Nursing and Broadcasting/Journalism. I knew at this point I was serious about going back to school, I wanted to follow through and get that degree, finally. No more one class here, one class there like I had been doing since graduating high school. I think I was definitely leaning more towards Nursing. But after meeting with the counselor and really seeing my options and looking at all the time I would be doing in school I decided I should and wanted to do something that I actually wanted to do, that was Broadcasting/Journalism. Because if I was going to dedicate all of my time and effort into my future well, I should like it or at least want to do it, right? I knew that it was something I wanted to pursue when I graduated high school 11 years ago but just never actually followed through or really got serious about. I don't know exactly what area of Broadcasting/Journalism I would like to be in yet. I love to listen to people talk, tell me their stories and tell me about themselves. I love when people allow themselves to be open and let me ask and listen. These are some reasons why I want to pursue this.
I know as of recently I have decided that what I really want is to be happy and do something everyday that makes me fulfilled. This is my true goal. While staying afloat economically, obviously. It has come to me that I am much more interested in feeling happy than feeling rich, maybe because there is no such feeling as rich...
As far as what I want to do, wow, it's more like what don't I want to do, (more chuckling)
Really I have an interest in a lot of things, maybe another reason why this field may be good for me.
I want to meet all kinds of people old and young, from all over the world. I want to collaborate with people, who have interesting thoughts and inspiring words and actions. I would like to help people, be an activist. Spread the word or get the word out there. I want to help the youth, more so after this class, all that I have learned makes me really want to help the children have a chance in life regardless of their situations as children. I want to show people the good still left in the world but also expose truths so people aren't blinded or lied to. I've been lucky enough to take this English class and have my eyes opened again to the opportunities out there and reminded that the resources are there if one wants or needs them. Also that we cannot expect change if we are not the change. So with that, What I want to do is be happy and what I want to be is fulfilled. Hopefully the path I am heading will lead me there and hopefully I can be the change I want in my life.
